To say that online bullying (or cyberbullying as kids these days are calling it) has become a major problem recently is a massive understatement. Over this last year, I have met some amazing people, and I have encountered some terrible ones.
I am going to start with the amazing people that I have met first, because it seems appropriate that they get the praise they deserve before delving into the dark pit of despair that certain factions of the Supernatural Fandom seems to have crawled from. These amazing people are men and women alike who give so much of themselves to try to make this dim world a little bit brighter have been the focus of a dangerous obsessive compulsive game of “if we can’t kill them physically, let’s kill them mentally.” Most of these beautiful people I have yet to meet face to face, but the ones I HAVE had the honor of meeting and hanging out with are such beautiful souls who would do anything for anyone at any given time. Yet somehow they are being punished for trying to do the right thing, which is a concept that escapes me. Sure, there may be some who associate with certain people you may not like, but quite frankly, that’s none of your business who they speak to in a personal capacity. Are these alleged phone calls hurting you personally? I highly doubt it. In fact, I rather doubt it makes ANY personal impact on your life at all other than the fact that you simply don’t like the person who may be on the other end of the phone.
I have actually had people try to glean information from me regarding this matter and I can honestly say that I have never witnessed any such communications. Even if I did, I doesn’t bother me because I have my own life to live. If my best friend were to receive a phone call from my highly abusive ex-husband whom I despise and they became friends, then hey… all the more power to them. I might warn them not to get too close based on my personal experience, but I’m not going to shun my hypothetical friend for speaking with someone I can’t stand, and who even tried to kill me a few times in a VERY literal way. I would simply tell them to be careful and move on. That’s what reasonable adults do. What DOES bother me is when I see posts telling people to go kill themselves, or that they are worthless, or even trying to destroy a person’s reputation that took years to build.
This takes me to Castiel’s Angels; technically I am not an angel, but an ally… and right now they need all the allies they can get. When C.A. was founded, it was a small group of fans who helped out with campaigns for the actors to get more shirt sales for the assigned foundations, and they were helping match donors who could help out by purchasing campaign shirts for those who couldn’t afford them. In this last year (ESPECIALLY since the #OnlyLove campaign), C.A. grew faster than they could have ever expected. Everyone wanted to become an Angel to represent their State or Country (and yes, there are Angels in Germany, Russia, and other areas of the world), and the founder was trying to find a way to make that happen. She knew the time would come when she would have to file and register as a legitimate non-profit, and when Misha was heading up Random Acts, he actually talked her OUT of filing for non-profit status. Many of you may not realize that, so I feel it’s time you SHOULD know this, or else the 501c(3) would be in place already. Bear in mind that the filings are now in the works by building a Board of Directors, coming up with a non-copywrite entity name, then filing with the Secretary of State. It can take weeks and even months for the Secretary of State to approve the 501c(3), and until that is approved, an ITN number cannot even be issued for the IRS to file the appropriate forms with them. The reason that takes so long is because it’s not like filing a Fictitious Firm Name (FFN) with the County wherein you pay $20 and it takes 10 minutes of your time. The 501c(3) is sent to our State’s Capitol for review and can literally sit in someone’s inbox for a while before they even get around to it. This is NOT an overnight process, and it amazes me at how many people think it’s a fast process. When I filed mine as a member of the Clergy, it took 6 months before I got my filing approved because they have to research a few things like making sure the name isn’t already taken, that anything used falls under the Fair Use Act, etc. You want Castiel’s Angels to become legit, which they are trying to do and are working on doing as we speak, but all of these allegations are more destructive than anything because it’s going to make it that much more difficult to get the filing approved. I fail to understand why you want to sabotage this organization so badly. The founder goes to school full time, works full time, then goes home and makes BEAUTIFUL handmade jewelry and crafts for the fandom with the proceeds being appropriated into their proper destinations for the various foundations that the actors of Supernatural hold so near and dear to them. Has she made mistakes? Of course, because she’s only human after all and she’s learning from those mistakes. Her pending organization grew so rapidly this last year, it amazes me that she is even able to keep on top of it at all! She’s dedicated to this fandom… fans and actors alike. I have actually SEEN her workshop and have even lent a helping hand a time or two in order to make all of the wonderful things the fans are requesting from her, and she does this out of her own pocket… yes, meaning everything she does, all of the supplies she uses, she pays for ALL of it on her OWN dime.
In February at VegasCon, she had made a bag full of items that were dedicated to the character Rowena, and handed the bag to Ruthie Connell herself! Ruth was the one who sold the items via donations at her autograph vendor booth, and when I went to follow up with Ruth since our founder was in a photo op at the time, Ruth was ecstatic not only that she had sold everything, but that one of the necklaces sold in the triple digit range! ALL of that money went to “My Hope Chest,” and Ruth was blown away by it, giving me not one hug but two… one for me, and one for our Castiel’s Angels founder who made it possible!
When Mark Pellegrino did his #OnlyLove Represent campaign back in the end of November to early December with Jeff, the Angels (and myself included) bought A LOT of shirts to donate to people who couldn’t afford them. When Mark extended the campaign, I knew I wanted to get a hoodie but was in between pay periods, and a friend (who’s name I am purposely omitting because I don’t want her to get anymore mixed up in this mess than she may already be since she’s already been doxxed once) stepped in and lent me the money to order a shirt (which I promptly paid back as soon as I got my paycheck), because that’s what we do in this family. We have each other’s backs! #OnlyLove went to “Stomp Out Bullying,” and the irony is that when the campaign was over, the bullying actually got WORSE! It became a movement to spread love among our Supernatural Family, and was somehow twisted into something toxic. In fact, it became SO bad that I almost threw out 16 years of sobriety over it and Mark, Jeff, Castiel’s Angels (all of them), and my aforementioned anonymous friend quite literally talked me off of the proverbial ledge that night, and for that I will be ETERNALLY grateful! In fact, the love for Mark was returned in kind at VegasCon because Castiel’s Angels made signs that said #OnlyLove to show support for Mark since he had become the focus of some of the bullying himself, and we wanted to let him know how special he is to this family! Despite what you may have read on Twitter that day, there were roughly 250 signs being held up around that convention room (sans the ones torn up by the Emo Squad), and it looked very much like what you saw in Roger’s video. I saw them because I happened to be in the line for Mark’s panel at the front of the room, but I couldn’t pull my phone out since I was next up with a question, or I CERAINLY would have taken video (or at least a few photos).
When David Hadyn-Jones did his Alzheimer’s Awareness campaign, he opted to use a C.A. design which was an amazing purple elephant with Ketch’s cross on the front leg because elephants are notorious for their amazing memories.
When Rachel Miner took over for Random Acts, Castiel’s Angels had many wonderful things for her to help her out as well, because she IS our unicorn!
So please, help me to understand how ANY of this is a bad thing. Seriously, I would like to know!
Now I am going to dive head first into the toxic sea that is the people who wish to decimate Castiel’s Angels. One of the most prominent catalysts of these latest attacks MUST be on some sort of illicit drug because hints were in fact given. First, I speak 5 languages and am learning a 6th one which happens to be Norwegian. I’m learning this language because I have a couple of friends who are in fact FROM Norway (one of which is a cultural celebrity, Trine Strand), and I made a promise that I would learn their language so when they come back to America, I can actually speak to them in their own language. I’m a bit of a linguist by hobby which also includes the language of science (Quantum and Astro Physics, as well as String Theory which I find rather fascinating). So when I heard a certain somebody added “Norwegian” into their name, I found it rather amusing and it also confirmed that this person has people stalking me and reporting back. To be honest, I suspected as much with the onslaught of sock accounts suddenly starting to follow me. Then I decided to post a few things in the languages I DO speak, and a screenshot by a trusted friend made its way back to me saying that I wasn’t the only one who could use Google Translate, but this person was “too sober to deal with it.” Well 1: I didn’t use Translate (I don’t need to), and 2: the last sentence I wrote was in my mother tongue to which there IS no translation program. Oh, let’s not forget about 3: people have actually HEARD me speak these languages over the phone and in person. So that just gave me a good giggle for the night. It was also brought to my attention that this person was tweeting about nonstop for roughly 27 hours STRAIGHT. Seriously… when do you sleep? Because that CAN’T be good for your health!
As to MY credibility, which was in question recently, let’s clear a few things up. I went to University and studied pre-law. In fact, I JUST got my student loan paid off 2 years ago. No I do not go by my married name when I am dealing with the courts for this reason. You see, in my State, a Paralegal can actually freelance, which means I don’t have to be working for any one law firm. My supervising attorney is whomever hires me for a time to aid in case loads, and yes in order to go into court and work on actual cases, I do have to be under an attorney. However, I do not have to be under supervision to pull paperwork and hand it to someone to fill out, nor do I need to be under supervision to file the paperwork. At that point, I am merely a runner and doing something that any civilian can do. I am prohibited from giving legal advice, but I CAN tell them where to sign on the dotted line. You see, here in MY state, Paralegals actually run legal form shops sans attorneys because we are not giving legal advice, but merely instruct the people/client how to fill out the legal forms, whether they need to be notarized, and where to take them to be filed, although we can do the filing for a fee since we are not appearing in court. However, right now I AM being supervised by a real estate attorney who specializes in HOAs and have a very good working relationship with our Department of Real Estate, which is why Castiel’s Angels is doing their own papers and filings for their non profit org. This is what you wanted them to do so you knew where the charity money went, isn’t it? However, now, you have managed to ruin their credibility for simply trying to do the right thing. Are your own lives THAT miserable that you feel the need to bring others down to your simplistic and pedestrian level? If so, I truly do feel sorry for you because there is so much more to this world than sitting behind your computer screen, phone, or tablet. Is Castiel’s Angels hurting you personally? Because you’ve certainly managed to bring down a woman who is trying to make a positive difference in this world, and a once upbeat young woman is now a mere shell of herself and has fallen into a form of depression because of YOUR actions and lack of civility. If you are on a substance (whether it be alcohol, meth, heroin, etc), or just suffering from depression yourself, I implore you to go get help. Trust me when I say that rambling on Twitter, sending death threats (whether it’s you or one of your minions, I really don’t know, nor do I care), and quite literally obsessing over someone else’s personal life is NOT a constructive outlet. Get out and enjoy some fresh air, go for a walk, go to the beach if you can, Hell… take up knitting! Do SOMETHING other than trying to tear people down! Because believe me when I say, it WILL eventually come back to bite you in the ass and haunt you in the end… it always does. Karma is kind of funny in that way.